'You'd Be Suprised How Much It Costs To Look This Cheap.'

Roulette.

It's A Funny Word Aint It.

Chances.

Are Funny Things Aren't They.

Depending On Circumstances.

You May Have One.

Or You Could Be Lucky Enough To Have Two.

But Who Deserves Them?

Ever Wish You Could See Abit Down The Line?

I Know 'Spoilers'.

But To See What Happens?

To Prevent Dissapointment.

Or Feel Reassured.

Hurting Hurts.

But Being Funny Is Fun.

It's Incredible.

Correction.

You're Incredible.

I'm At My Worst.

And You Call.

Just To Check I'm Okay.

Tell Me Stories You Know I'll Laugh At.

Say Things You Know That Will Make Me Smile.

Charlie Smile.

You Say I Can And I Will.

Anytime.

Just Need Credit...

Your 1 In Ifinity Sunshine.

Just Your Voice Is Enough To Brighten My Eyes.

And Make The Goofiest Smile Appear On My Stupid Face.

Make Me Feel Like I Can Be Stronger.

It's Your Motivating Tone.

Definately A 7 Billion Out Of 10.

Possibly More.

Definately.

I'm In Desperate Need Of A Road Trip.

And I Reckon 'You' Know Exactly Where. xXx

'I'm Proud To Say, I Got You...'

Ever Wake Up From That Dream That You Wish Was Real?

Ever Get Check Your Phone And See A Suprise Text Which Instantly Brightens Your Day?

Because You're Thinking Of Them Too.

Or Even Hear A Song Where You Can Relate To Every Word Sung?

Someone Said 'People Don't Know What Good They've Got, Until It's Gone.'

Surely It's Not Everyone, Right?

And Wouldn't It Be Nice If People Noticed What Good They Had,

And Embraced It?

Is That The Word?

Happy.

Who Came Up With Happy?

What Makes You Happy?

What Do You Count As The Happy Feeling?

Shiny Shoes Make Me Happy.

Timeless Second Hand Trinkets Make Me Happy.

A Lower Number On The Scales Makes Me Happy.

A Dress Size Down Makes Me Happy.

Meaningful Words Make Me Happy.

Songs That Tell A Story Make Me Happy.

The Unexpected Things Make Me Happy.

Long Distance Driving Makes Me Happy.

Driving At Night Makes Me Happy.

No One Can See You Sing.

My Family Makes Me Happy.

My Friends Make Me Happy.

My Work Makes Me Happy.

The Little Things Make Me Happy.

You Make Me Happy.

But What About Those Who Aren't Happy?

It Would Be Helpful If We Were More Happy To Help.
To Help Those Scared, Sad, Suffering, Hurt.

Thursday Night I Watched My 12 Year Old Brother Burst Into Tears.

Because My Mum Asked Him How His Day At School Was.

He's Being Bullied.

Kids Pinned Him Down, Put A Chair On Him And Sat On It.

What Hurts The Most Is That I Couldn't Do Anything To Stop That From Happening.

He Is One Of The Nicest Most Thoughtful Kids I Know.

Best Friends.

And He's Hurting Because Of Some Fucking Kids.

Who Don't Know What They've Just Let Themselves Into.

We Are Aware Of Who You Are.

And So Are The Rest Of The Family.

Good Luck. xXx

'Fear Couldn't Place It's Hands On Us My Dear...'

Happy Holidays.

Can You Guess What Kind Of Thing Happened?

You Got It,

Miraculous.

1:34am, 14th December 2010.

I Was Distracted At Thanet Roundabout By A Shooting Star.

A Real One.

For 3 Minutes.

I'm Certain It Wasn't A Plane.

Promise.

Ever Have A Night Like That?

Where You Feel All Kinds Of Good?

And No One Can Take It Away?

Some Crappy Sleep Later...

Do You Ever Have One Of Those Days Where You Can't Even Face Yourself?

Every Glimpse I Caught Of Myself In The Mirrors Made Me Sick.

Thank Goodness For The 4 Hours In The Stockroom,

Because I Don't Think I Could Of Faked Another Smile To Another Customer.

'Put On A Brave Face'.

That's What You're Supposed To Do, Right?

It's Not As Easy As It Sounds You Know.

But This 'Grinds My Gears'.

Is It So Wrong To Want Someone.

To Want To Be Someones.

To Know Their Hopes.

To Know Their Fears.

To Help Them Out.

To Make Them Smile.

To Fix Them When Something Hurts.

To Know Their Heart.

And Right Now,

I Know I'm Pouring Mine Out.

But I'm Not So Sure On What Else I'm Supposed To Do.

How Can I Give Up Everything I Have,

To Get The Only Thing I Want?

Haha, Tough Times.

You Know That Tingly Feeling You Get,

When Your Nose Is So Cold You Have To Scrunch Your Face Up?

Yeah, I Hate That. xXx

'These Things Take Time To Grow.'

Hello.

I'm Charlie Stamper.

I'm Charlie 'The Good Friend' Stamper.

Charlie 'The Second Best' Stamper.

Charlie 'The Reserve' Stamper.

Charlie 'There When You Need Her' Stamper.

Charlie 'Drop Her When You're Done' Stamper.

Nice To Meet You.

I Go Out Of My Way For People.

Doesn't Matter Who You Are.

But I'll End Up Doing It.

I Don't Need To.

But I Will.

I Can't Help It.

Because.

I'd Like To Think People Would Do The Same For Me.

And There Is A Very Select Few.

Who I Can Safely Say, Do.

But Sometimes It Does Hurt.

When I Realise.

I Am A Complete Mug For Doing It.

Happy Days.

But Also I'm Happy I Do It.

Sometimes.

Because Just To See Them Smile.

And Their Face Light Up.

It's Totally Worth It.

So.

I May Be Charlie Stamper.

Or Charlie 'The People Pleaser' Stamper.

Or Charlie 'The Quiet One' Stamper.

Or Even Charlie 'The Shy One' Stamper.

And Charlie 'The Grin And Bear It' Stamper.

But I Am Also More Than That.

Alright Sunshine.

I'm Charlotte Louise Stamper.

Nice To Meet You. xXx

'If You're Listening...'

I Spoke Of Miraculous Things.

Truth Is Since The Time That Happened.

I'm Lucky Enough To See These Things Unfold Right Infront Of My Eyes.

All The Time.

It's Taught Me To Look Out For Those Things.

That Make The Day Special.

That Make You Think.

Okay, They Make You A Dreamer Sometimes.

But That's Okay.

Because What's A Life Without Dreams Right?

Today I Woke Up At 5:34am.

4 Minutes Out, But Who's Counting.

Still Dark.

But The Streetlamps Were Enough To Light Up The Snow.

Thing Is About Snow, It Can Highlight The Beautiful Things.

But Then Cause All Kinds Of Hell.

This Shortliving Illness Has Kind Of Consumed Me.

Kind Of Like This 'Life' Thing.

It's Toxic.

So I'm Going To Stop Playing With Poisons.

And Break Burdens.

Love It. xXx

'I Would Catch A Grenade For You.'

So it's been a year now.

I now have a part time job.

Looking for another.

I was so close to having that special someone.

I Fucked Up.

Looking For Another.

I'm now 2 stone lighter.

Life Plan slowed down.

Created Another.

It really is a wonder how moods can change.

At The Drop Of One Hat Somewhere Around.

You Could Be The Most Angry Of People.

The Most Annoyed Of People.

The Most Loneliest Of People.

The Most Scared Of People.

And Something Miraculous Happens And Changes It.

Like You Arrive Home At Ridiculous 'O Clock In The Morning.

After Being With Him.

Sitting On A Wall, Overlooking The Beach.

On August 1st 2010, 5:17am.

Looking At Possibly The Most Beautiful Sky There Is.

And That's When The Change Happens.

And You Just Breathe And Look Out Infront Of You.

Becoming The Most Calmest Of People.

The Most Tolerant Of People.

A Person Missing That Certain Person Who Makes Them The Not Loneliest Of People.

The Most Brave Of People.

And You Just Smile.

And Think.

For Exactly 13 Minutes.

Realising The Time.

But Noticing The Tide.

And That Person Walked Down To The Waves.

And Stared.

While That Cold Sea Froze Her Feet.

And Smiled Again.

So I Did Fuck Up.

I'm Sure Everyone Does At Some Point.

I Tried Fixing It And It Hurt.

And Stayed Fucked.

'But Darlin' I'd Still Catch A Grenade For You.' xXx

It Must Have Broke Your Poor Little Heart When The Boys Used To Sing "You Look Better In The Dark".

In The Words of We Are The Ocean 'Nothing Good Has Happened Yet'.

Who said that the worst is yet to come? Thats stupid because if it's true then im screwed.

Just taking it days at a time, living in a stupid dreamworld.

Reality is im alone, people are leaving and things are changing.

You could have been that silly little light at the end of that stupid tunnel.

I shouldnt get soo excited about things, build things up.

Just makes the fall alot harder haha.

I guess if you was only after one thing im better off with out the likes of you, right?

Even if no ones there looking at these silly words, but maybe someone else may feel better for it.

Or they may just think 'another emo blog'.

Shocks are to come.

It's going to work, this life thng.

Friends, Family and aquaintences won't see it coming.

Should be a laugh. xXx