'If You're Listening...'

I Spoke Of Miraculous Things.

Truth Is Since The Time That Happened.

I'm Lucky Enough To See These Things Unfold Right Infront Of My Eyes.

All The Time.

It's Taught Me To Look Out For Those Things.

That Make The Day Special.

That Make You Think.

Okay, They Make You A Dreamer Sometimes.

But That's Okay.

Because What's A Life Without Dreams Right?

Today I Woke Up At 5:34am.

4 Minutes Out, But Who's Counting.

Still Dark.

But The Streetlamps Were Enough To Light Up The Snow.

Thing Is About Snow, It Can Highlight The Beautiful Things.

But Then Cause All Kinds Of Hell.

This Shortliving Illness Has Kind Of Consumed Me.

Kind Of Like This 'Life' Thing.

It's Toxic.

So I'm Going To Stop Playing With Poisons.

And Break Burdens.

Love It. xXx

'I Would Catch A Grenade For You.'

So it's been a year now.

I now have a part time job.

Looking for another.

I was so close to having that special someone.

I Fucked Up.

Looking For Another.

I'm now 2 stone lighter.

Life Plan slowed down.

Created Another.

It really is a wonder how moods can change.

At The Drop Of One Hat Somewhere Around.

You Could Be The Most Angry Of People.

The Most Annoyed Of People.

The Most Loneliest Of People.

The Most Scared Of People.

And Something Miraculous Happens And Changes It.

Like You Arrive Home At Ridiculous 'O Clock In The Morning.

After Being With Him.

Sitting On A Wall, Overlooking The Beach.

On August 1st 2010, 5:17am.

Looking At Possibly The Most Beautiful Sky There Is.

And That's When The Change Happens.

And You Just Breathe And Look Out Infront Of You.

Becoming The Most Calmest Of People.

The Most Tolerant Of People.

A Person Missing That Certain Person Who Makes Them The Not Loneliest Of People.

The Most Brave Of People.

And You Just Smile.

And Think.

For Exactly 13 Minutes.

Realising The Time.

But Noticing The Tide.

And That Person Walked Down To The Waves.

And Stared.

While That Cold Sea Froze Her Feet.

And Smiled Again.

So I Did Fuck Up.

I'm Sure Everyone Does At Some Point.

I Tried Fixing It And It Hurt.

And Stayed Fucked.

'But Darlin' I'd Still Catch A Grenade For You.' xXx