It Must Have Broke Your Poor Little Heart When The Boys Used To Sing "You Look Better In The Dark".

In The Words of We Are The Ocean 'Nothing Good Has Happened Yet'.

Who said that the worst is yet to come? Thats stupid because if it's true then im screwed.

Just taking it days at a time, living in a stupid dreamworld.

Reality is im alone, people are leaving and things are changing.

You could have been that silly little light at the end of that stupid tunnel.

I shouldnt get soo excited about things, build things up.

Just makes the fall alot harder haha.

I guess if you was only after one thing im better off with out the likes of you, right?

Even if no ones there looking at these silly words, but maybe someone else may feel better for it.

Or they may just think 'another emo blog'.

Shocks are to come.

It's going to work, this life thng.

Friends, Family and aquaintences won't see it coming.

Should be a laugh. xXx

All In A Days Work.

Life Playlist.

Pissed Off = The Ghost Of A Thousand - Bored Of Maths.

Washing Up = Punchline - Heart Transplant.

Housework = Young Guns - In The Night.

'Scene Dancing' = Tonight Is Goodbye - Black Dress.

Alone = Jacks Mannequin - Dark Blue.

Singing Loudly = We Are The Ocean - Save Me! Said The Saviour.

Hoovering = Something Corporate - Punk Rock Princess.

Hair Shaking = Paramore - Misery Business.

Traffic Jam = Bring Me The Horizon - Diamonds Aren't Forever.

Tidying Up = Escape The Fate - This War Is Ours.

Cleaning = Mayday Parade - Jamie All Over.

Washing = Look! Im A Ghost - All Along The Waterfront.

Dusting = Paramore -Thats What You Get.

Sewing = New Found Glory = This Disaster.

Ironing = Amber Pacific - Gone So Young.

School Run = You Me At Six - Taste.

Driving = Blink 182 - Feeling This.

Feeling 'Crunk' haha = MC LARS - Generic Crunk Rap/21 Concepts.

Night Driving = All Time Low - Lullabies.

Putting The Washing Out = You Me At Six - Take Off Your Colours.

Downtime = The Starting Line - Playing Favourites.

Washing In = MC LARS - Hot Topic Is Not Punk Rock.

Cooking = The Starting Line - The Best Of Me.

Room Tidying = Bring Me The Horizon - Chelsea Smile.

'The College Walk' = You Me At Six - Jealous Minds Think Alike.

'The Out Walk' = Lucky Boys Confusion - Something To Believe.

Writting This = Paramore - For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic.

'Face On' = Escape The Fate - Ashley.

'Face Off' = We Are The Ocean - God Damn Good.

Clothes = The Fall Of Troy - F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X.

Pijamas = Jimmy Eat World - Sweetness.

Bedtime = The Spill Canvas - All Over You (Acoustic).

Wake Up = Deaf Havana - Oh Howard, You Crack Me Up.

Haha. xXx

A Loser Can Win Whenever They Want To...

Ok so here goes...

A car works better with petrol.

A bike works better with wheels.

A guitar works better with strings.

A song works better with words.

A drummer works better with drums.

A clock works better with time.

A world works better with peace?

A film works better with actors.

A day works better with the sun.

Life works better when its fun.

Friends work better when there together.

Shoes work better when you run.

Barbequeues work better on the beach.

Father Ted works better when your here.

Pijamas work better in bed.

A singer works better with a story to tell.

That dream will work better with my ideas.

I will work better with you. xXx

This Is The Way You Make Me Feel...

Whoa.

What a weekend.

What an atmosphere.

The best 560 ish miles driven in my life so far.

Despite the bird.

And the bloody sat nav.

Then the hotel.

The rocketship bathroom.

Awsome cold showers.

The slightly scary surroundings.

Effing 4 lane roundabouts.

The addictive badly american dubbed oriental action film.

Sucky hotel TV internet.

The very patient hotel staff man with nice hair.

All of those rather attractive young men.

The in - room tea and coffee equipment.

Achey feet.

The crappy £6 hotel breakfast.

Crazy speedy taxi drivers, hey they got us there.

The broken air conditioning.

Very very scary lorry drivers, surely there not allowed to do that?

The outstanding selection of music played in the car.

Smell of fags hitting us everytime we walked into the room.

Our room on the top 12th floor.

The key card failing on us regularly.

Uncomfortable lifd rides.

The overpriced american diners.

'£9 for a fuckin' burger!'

Cutting people off on the road.

The pictures and videos to come.

Our new t - shirts.

The crossword puzzles, 'I'm telling you its lemur.'

Dentalux kids toothpaste, 'It's like jelly!'

Pj bottoms.

Funny accents, 'Southern Pride Y'all!'

Sunglasses on the drive.

Singing too loud to even care.

Sweating like bitches.

Weird coincidents.

Reunions.

There is 7 things i hate about you. haha.

The crap in the back of my car.

Being star struck every 3 seconds approx.

The steering lock.

Those lovely northern accents.

That pointless sofa.

Nice whoreish shoes.

Lucozade, liquorice, glacier fruits and fizzy worms.

Bathroom pictures, sideways hat, manga eyes.

Too much more to even say...

But all of this MADE our trip to Slamdunk 09. Genius. xXx

Blue Eyes Don't Lie.

What is even, what matches?

Is anything perfectly the same, or is it just a perfect copy?

Like music, CD's contain songs that are surely copies of that one brilliant original?

Shoes, is it just me or does one always look better?

Also clothing, is it just copies or prints of that one original design?

Photographs are just enlarged exposures, copies of that one negative.

Is there anything that is exactly the same?

Theres one thing that can't even come close to being the same, people.

Twins, even they have differences.

Im talking about if you think you know someone, when it turns out they become a different person around different people or different atmospheres.

Eyes are different, and if you'd have looked in mine you would have seen the light blue fleck that makes them different. xXx

'Always The Bridesmaid...'

The title may not be relevant, but i found it fitting.
What is the deal? Honestly.
Being the friend that people look at as a 'last resort'.
i.e. meaning when all the good ones are gone spose she''ll do.
I should be so lucky.
It's not fun, I'd like to shake things up, but don't know how.

I mean what's wrong?

I guess it's all easier said than done.

'I'm going to do this, oh and im definately going to do that.'

No chance, I'll just shy away thanks.

For the record, warmy pijamas are the best. ever.

On another note, why won't anyone hire me, im capable of most things.

I can do as im told, im dead good at cleaning, even better at washing.

I need money to start this empire im going to build.

'Love is for the blind and you gave yours without your eyes.'

New laptop buttons are ace, makes me feel that whatever im typing is important.

Fith Element is on tonight, planning on watching that, stop reading this if you are and watch that if you haven't ever.

Oooh must go and get Illy from work and take her to the station, pj's and driving blend well.

Well this was another waste of my time, and probably your's if your there. xXx

Dumb Bitches.

No one should have to feel like this, ever.
People that have to tear other people down to make themselves feel good make me sick.
Sick to my god damn stomach.
You prance around upper class like, but you are just gloryfied chavs.
I know this is defeating the object, but your not worth my time.
Im not violent but i could break your plastic face.
They say its the quiet ones you should look out for, its true we have tricks up our quiet sleeves.
One day i hope to see you looking up at me from the gutter where you belong, like the trash that you are.
I know this is hypocritical, but im being truthful.
One day your going to have a mighty fall, im just gutted that ill miss it.
People say change your ways, but you are too stubborn for that.
Well in that case, watch you back.
Because ill 'bring a knife to this fist fight'. xXx

I Love You, Man.

Empty cinemas are uncomfortable, especially when you want to laugh.
Orange wednesdays are pretty good.
Being a passenger is weird, but fun too.
Mcdonalds is bad, full stop.
Ive missed these times.
I Love You, Man is actually funny.
'Ill see you on the FLIPside'.
Im skint.
Still no one wants to employ me.
Russell Howard is a legend.
Check out fndfilms.com.
So good. xXx

Game Over.

What was the point of making me?

I look around and see everyone with their perfect bodies, perfect faces, sweet clothes and flawless relationships, relationships even and think 'why cant i have that'.

Well heres why, family genes can be a godsend or a curse and im not sure what to blame this on anymore.

Pale complexion, sensitive skin, tiny feet, blonde eyelashes, stupid eyes, stupid bones, 'red' hair, thin hair, silly ears, pouty lips, blonde eyebrows, boyish frame, bigger build, tall, big hips, clicky hips, stupid back, disgusting weight, freckles, burn in the sun, body shape, teeth gap and bad knees.

Yeah family genes 'oh you get that from your mum's side' or 'oh you get that from your dad's side' well looks like i struck gold in that genepool, im a real catch.

And yet i never picked up any of the better genes like my brothers blonde hair, dark eyelashes, tanned skin, thick hair, smaller build and perfect skin. Gee lucky me. What was the point. xXx

Why Can't I Sleep?

Jeez.

I'm completely ready for bed.

RENO 911 is on, genius. His shorts are genius.

It's not too hot and it's not too cold.

The house is completely empty, im all alone.

This is scary, cold, creepy and wicked at the same time.

I had coco popps for dinner and i didnt have to justify myself to anyone.

But still bummed out at the fact im alone. sucks.

Stepbrothers is a class film, 'Stop Being A Fucking Dinasour And Get A Job!'

Got £10 free credit to use before 12, no one to use it on.

Blunt pencils, cant find the sharpener.

On a better note.

I am soo stoked me, illy, karl and mike i think are trekking it down to leeds for the Slamdunk festival on the 24th May aaaaah its going to be bloody awsome. We Are The Ocean, The Ghost Of A Thousand, You Me At Six, The Blackout, Anti-Flag, Tonight Is Goodbye soooo much more. Damn its going to be awsome. Staying in a travel lodge i think, cruising in the nissan dressed like chavs. High class photography is hopefull going to take place.

Tomorow is going to be good. haha. illy and mayday. nice one. xXx

Im Sick...

Im sick of this.

Im sick of that.


Im sick of him.


Im sick of her.


Im sick of 'friends'.


Im sick of being a doormat.


Im sick of kids listening to a band because it's the 'cool thing to do' again.


Im sick of not getting that guy.

Im sick of not getting any guy, for that matter.


Im sick of that guy not knowing who he is.

Im sick of decieving shampoo bottles, no more tears? ha.

Im sick of this body.

Im sick of these 'curves'.

Im sick of no one hiring me.

Im sick of this busted hip.

Im sick of my stupid little feet.

Im sick of this sore throat.


Im sick of feeling the hayfever coming on.

Im sick of having no where to go.


Im sick of being as cool as these guys.


Im sick of my sense of balance.


Im sick of this 'scene kid midlife crisis'.


Im sick of waiting for your reply.

Im sick of this broken phone.


Im sick of your hushed tone.

Im sick of time running out.


Im sick of lonely nights.

Im sick of stupid fights.

Im sick of running out of film.

Im sick of good books finishing.

Im sick of everyone leaving.


Im sick of not looking as hot as this guy.

Im sick of that gap in the market staring me in the face.

Im sick of being ridiculously shy.

Im sick of clothes that dont fit.

Im sick of these grazed knees.

Im sick of this not making any sense.

Time for change.

However, Im never sick of this...

Febuary So Far...

It's nice to see that things are looking up, the past two weeks have 'brought me back' as it were.

First of all went to a local gig down the beercart, local bands don't get the right amount of credit that they deserve, there are some bloody diamonds in this rough im telling you.

The next day me and a friend went to see We Are The Ocean in london to make up for my birthday, and oh mann did it put that to shame.

It was out of this god damn world.

The supports were Deaf Havana, Young Guns and The Urgency. They were all soo good.

Then the next day, i made a dress from scratch, a whole dress for art. I couldnt believe it, at actually looks like my designs. It was really weird to see it as a real thing not just a drawing.

Tuesday the 10th of Febuary, left for paris, got stuck in traffic but still got there in time. It was pretty nice got to see all the touristy stuff, the fashion galleries, premiere vision. Took soo many pictures, uploading them will take forever.

As for the other pictures, waiting for them to be developed is the worst part, i just want to see them, im hoping they all come out ok.

Now it's half term, jobhunting, possibly a gig, nothing much else. Laterz xXx

Hello, I'm Charlie. I'm not sure why im doing this. But it seemed a good idea whilst signing up. So im Charlie, i just turned 19, i don't drink, i don't smoke, i don't go out much,i don't do much to be honest. This may not sound like the begining of 'blogger gold' but it gives me a chance to get some things off of my chest i suppose.

At first i wasnt sure what to write so im thinking lest start with what happened in the past month. I'm quite hoping that it hasn't set the tone for the rest of the yeah, i don't think i could hack it.

New years eve, i don't see the point really nothing much changed, went to wales to see family and as the clock struck 12 i was in the bath watching Father Ted. I didn't even realise.

Went to the pantomime in town, Dick Whittington, pretty good thats the first time i've seen tom cat play the guitar.

Then there was a bitch of a week, i got let down and stood up. It hurt mann i'm not going to pretend it did'nt because it did, do people even think?

Then my luck was in on the next day as a mate had a spare ticket to the Escape The Fate show in islington, i know it's escape the fate but i like them, All Forgotten supported fucking cheered me up, got a t-shirt and met them,awsome.

Went to an exhibition in canterbury of some of our work, it was good to see it there, made me kind of proud of myslef for probably the first time ever, ha.

Then there was my birthday Friday the 30th of January, what an eventful day. I got a kill james blunt t-shirt and disney princess balloon from one brother, plastic tiara set and bubbles form the other. After college i went on a college trip the the Kerrang Relentless Tour, with a friend. The bands were MSI,BMTH,ICOF,Black Tide,DEG and someone else. We got to college and the minbus wouldnt start, fantastic. Finally got to Brixton and queued for maybe 45mins despite the fact that the doors should have already been opened because we were late. Then we got word from a security gaurd, 'Weve had a power cut, but were going to let you in coz its cold', aw how nice. We got in and must have waited another half hour at least and then some people came onto the stage and on man said 'Due to unforseen circumstances and vast power failure tonights performance will not be taking place...', fucking brilliant. So we got back in the minibus and went to a tesco petrol station and started the journey home, where i found myself telling everyone about the funny bad stupid things that happened.

Saturday the 31st, my birthday take 2 apparently, got all dressed up even wore a dress and heels jeez, went to a fancy meal and the waiter just stared as i ask him what fork to use, that was fun. Then my cousin took me to some 'Talk' club in herne bay, what a mistake it made me sick just being in a place like that coor, ended up in canterbury somehow.

Well that was pretty much January, if anyone actually reads this.

I think i feel kind of better, ah well, bedtime. xXxXx