'I Would Catch A Grenade For You.'

So it's been a year now.

I now have a part time job.

Looking for another.

I was so close to having that special someone.

I Fucked Up.

Looking For Another.

I'm now 2 stone lighter.

Life Plan slowed down.

Created Another.

It really is a wonder how moods can change.

At The Drop Of One Hat Somewhere Around.

You Could Be The Most Angry Of People.

The Most Annoyed Of People.

The Most Loneliest Of People.

The Most Scared Of People.

And Something Miraculous Happens And Changes It.

Like You Arrive Home At Ridiculous 'O Clock In The Morning.

After Being With Him.

Sitting On A Wall, Overlooking The Beach.

On August 1st 2010, 5:17am.

Looking At Possibly The Most Beautiful Sky There Is.

And That's When The Change Happens.

And You Just Breathe And Look Out Infront Of You.

Becoming The Most Calmest Of People.

The Most Tolerant Of People.

A Person Missing That Certain Person Who Makes Them The Not Loneliest Of People.

The Most Brave Of People.

And You Just Smile.

And Think.

For Exactly 13 Minutes.

Realising The Time.

But Noticing The Tide.

And That Person Walked Down To The Waves.

And Stared.

While That Cold Sea Froze Her Feet.

And Smiled Again.

So I Did Fuck Up.

I'm Sure Everyone Does At Some Point.

I Tried Fixing It And It Hurt.

And Stayed Fucked.

'But Darlin' I'd Still Catch A Grenade For You.' xXx